free

by Howler

Posted to Action Poetry on 2002-05-29 10:02:00

I know what I have to do
I have to free myself
free from hate,
free from fear,
free from selfhate,
free to finally
do what I want
just free

want to go on the road
want to have friends
want to trust myself
oh soulbrothers and sisters
where art thou?
without you I can never be free
but you are far away at home
I can’t reach you and you can’t reach me
but I know where you are
and that I’ll see you again
at home
I’m sick and scared
and don’t know what to do
if I can hold on
just a few months
then I can see you again

I don’t want to die
life is beautiful
and I love it
but it’s lonely
and even an aspie girl
can’t stand too much loneliness
so my autistic brothers and sisters
if I can’t make it
please remember a weird,dreamy girl
who tried and tried
but never made it