i try so hard.. but i cant..

by lotusgrl

Posted to Action Poetry on 2002-12-30 16:21:00

the hell w/ crying,
anyone thinking im manic,
i keep wanting to stop
im really trying
but i cant
i try from inside
i try from outside
i try so hard.. but i cant
i try to think about how much i have thats worthwhile, thats meaningful..
i feel im eight again,
about to crawl right in again
the depression i always used to have
and always thought would never leave
how to help it i cant conceive
sometimes i wanted to die,
but i never tried to
just sleep i said
that will help..
just sleep she said
she didnt help..
turn away from other help he said..
that wont help..
years later..
and what the fuck will?
they dont help..