Surrender
by IfOnlyFrogsWereGods
Posted to Poetry on 2003-02-13 10:57:00
I understand the negligence
The decadence
The reverence that is given to all that has been
Charged with the ability to anger me
Beyond the point of coping with
Anything that might save my soul
From burning out on high doses of hatred
And remorse.
But I don’t want to understand these things
These ways
This forsaking of waking moments in my life
That did nothing to anyone but try to exist
And now they lay shit on
Like the deceitful lies of demons
And breaths of Satan
Though, I cannot understand what it is or what happened
To make me so evil
I never meant to be! I cannot get away!
The clouds are suffocating me in gloomy shadows
Not dark enough to hide me, not light enough to enlighten me
And still I try so hard to get a way
But what is denial anyway…