yes, I’ve felt it

by Tu burban sales

Posted to Utterances on 2002-08-25 16:30:00

Parent message is 266985
I fell in love with a boy who was my friend, I would have done anything for him, it was the most selfless feeling I’ve ever known. just knowing him has been an important part of my life. knowning I can feel like that has been an important part of my life too. it ended up with us falling out, he believed the gossip of others instead of what I told him. said he never wanted to speak to me again. that was a year and a half ago, and I havent spoken to him since, despite being in the same school, with the same friend, in the same school band.
when he said he didn’t believe me, it hurt more than anything, and still does. I dont know if I’ll ever get over it, I feel sad just thinking about it coz I know in those words (‘I don’t believe you’) he destroyed everything I’d believed about him and everything that made me truly happy, the joy of loving another person more than myself. I dont know if it’ll happen again, I hope so, but I’m also scared it’ll end the same way.