i didn’t try

by justalil

Posted to Utterances on 2002-12-30 11:45:00

Parent message is 348283
until not long ago to find the connection between artistry and depression.

for one: i think that suffering aids expression and creation. suffering can be so intense that it fuels wildly brilliant creations.

also: i’m not sure how everyone else operates, but i’ve found through myself that by being so immersed in my mind when i paint/write/whatever i become immersed in an overflow of emotions and become highly sensitive. talking to others has shown me that i’m not the only one this happens to. unfortunately, i become highly sensitive more often when i feel down that when i’m happy.

i’ve tried for years to keep myself at a somewhat elevated level of happiness. a heavy heart is a burden that i’d like to shake off. a few months ago, however, i decided that reality is sad and if i weren’t sad enough to notice the truth, i’d bullshit myself as well as everyone else. so i’ve decided to remain realistically saddened by the things that happen around me.

conclusion? suffering aids art, in my opinion. but we don’t have to suffer in order to be creative. i was an insanely creative child and happy at one time.


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