My thoughts
by mtmynd
Posted to Utterances on 2004-01-23 06:25:00
Parent message is 587522
I can only add to the list of great advice that you’ve already received.
I remember you talking about surfing, a great love of yours. Would you surf totally drunk? I think not. So why would you drive in such a condition? Both are attempts to attain a destination, but the drunk that drives takes the risk of taking others with them, against the others will. That cannot be said about surfing.
And while on the surf analogy – being a surfer, I’m sure you are aware that you cannot catch the big one all the time, and even when you catch any wave you realized that the crest is temporary… as wonderful as the trip is, it too is temporal. The yin/yang of drunkeness is realized thru the hangover – the worse you feel the day after is in balance with how much you consumed the night before. It is usually the hangover that brings on the guilt. If you come to that understanding you may be able to control the initial drinking … achieve a balance, an awareness that how much you consume will affect your ‘day after’.
The ‘romance of alcohol’ is one of distorted self love, an escape from pain that one cannot face up to, or does not know how to face up to. Either way, the results are the same – washing away not the pain but the facing of your self.. a postponement of the inevitable. If you have the balls to ride the big waves, Ronnie, I know you have the balls to balance your drinking.
Peace.