History-less

by MichaelAMichael

Posted to Utterances on 2004-07-08 05:13:00

Does anyone here have a palpable sense of history? I feel that I am history-less,; I feel that I am without history. I know that history is out there, that all of these things happened, that people died in the wars and fought, and that countries have had these revolutions and things have changed, but I do not feel it at all. I cannot feel any sense of history meaning anything, no matter how many documentaries I watch about the Third Reich or Mussolini or Franco; it just doesn’t seem to affect me; it just seems so far removed from my everyday life, and that is the problem. History is strange; it is there and I know it is there but I feel nothing for it. I am small and it is big and I cannot get any emotion towards it. I am not cold, and have cried my eyes out during certain documentaries, and yes, sometimes, I do manage to get a bit of a feel for history, but the characters in history just seem so different to anything I encounter in my everyday life.

I have not put this in the best way that I could have because I am having problems these days formulating my thoughts and phrases, and my memory is a bit shot also, but generally history seems like this whole other thing, and my life as I live it as this thing that has nothing to do with that whole other thing, if you see what I mean.

History has nothing to do with me. I was just born; I looked around and listened to stories, and here I am.

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