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you, the liar of my heat
me, the victim
of your heart
and that ugly truth
of what you were doin' to me
nothing left except to say
the mandolin of ringy tingy hearts
no sound below or above me
you trapped me
with stupid lies
STOP your stupid lies
stop
what you're doin to me
my love
you made me see
then
when we
were not so ancient
but once young and strong
sleeping together
in 1993
me driving in my car
fleeing
the time capsule
you wanted me to be
i dug myself free
lifted from the dirt
the mound of soil
the top of bleeding
green that is the summer
trees
the animal
of you filled me
with love and hate
and the way you moved
and the things you said
i don't like knowing people
you said
so i split and my
first stop
st. louis
then on to chicago
in the summer heat
a beat up crimsom car
a four latched sedan ford
full of plants
when the air conditioner
went out
in gary, indiana
the plants turned black
still
i kept going
driving on to jacob's field
deep in shooting cleveland
i searched the streets
for caffeinated lovers
but you were gone
and everything was still wrong
so i drove on
to erie, pa
past buffalo waters
and made for the lilac trees
of rochester
upstate new york
the desperate lilac trees
the clouds of summer silent
thunder, the heat as
i sat by the swimming pool
thinking of december
january
february remembering
when you called me up
said you were in jail
so i made your bail
and drove all the way back
to oklahoma city
and liberated our love
ten years go by
and tonight
you finally come home
i tossed my love for
half dollars
whiskey pillow
signs to show me where
the cocaine lies
of clarity
never never chilling
the spark of my heart
and so
i turned back
to find you
to get you
to free you
to put you in the car
to pull the trigger
to shoot that big
ass hole in my hollow
wounded parts
you never hurt me
you never ever
went away
even when there was nothing
for me to say
take me alive
i will do it again
the offer
the pain
oh baby
hurt me one more time
why i was still alive
waiting for you to walk through
the special places
the only rule i obeyed
was to live and lie
for you the world
and what it
put you through
i wouldn't want a life
without you
to see you again
the need to see
you laughing again
smoking
shooting up
the ugly truth
you and me
too much trouble
for ancient pilgrim love
in new orleans
you held me
you tied me up
you drugged me
and I begged you
to free the trigger
the bigger my love
the stars
the lovers
every thing
i have ever been
you are
the stars
spangled
against
the benign
indifference of the universe
shoot me
shoot me
the sweetness
of the universe
i am the morning
you are the night
the curse of the flowers
the hours
as the stars fall into the night
and morning creeps up again
like a god
you were
a red god of love
damn you cupid
i voted for your love
look where godness
gets me tonight
home?
where is home
i don't want to die
though the living
gets me down
you ripped me
from the ground
and i ran
from that ugly truth
of being alive
i find myself
smiling
in a way
i never felt
coming out the other side
of youth

yeah
imagine
that
every waking
hour
counting every star
i imagine
me
broken
green and dying
singing in my chains
strong enough
to reach out
and find you
find you
my
love
kiss me
now
now
that
i
am
dying

all my dreams
every waking hour
filled with lead
i'm dead
but ghosts run red
tonight
i rise
to resurrect
our love

you
who
would
never
say
yes
to me

me falling
calling
in the blackness
in the day blue sky
nothing left to say
no single word
no one understands
how i could
never
say
no
to
u