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maybe i'm ridiculous (repost)

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maybe i'm ridiculous
for wanting it to mean something
for wanting anything
but when i see everything i loved
melt into nonsense--
maybe i'm ridiculous
thinking i know anything
thinking i understand
thinking i can say anything
and
maybe i'm ridiculous
for believing i make sense
for believing in saying what i know
for believing in cutting out my feelings until they bleed
on paper
on screen
maybe
i'm just ridiculous
for--
for this. for everything.
maybe...


part 2

when everything goes false
and the air reeks
of designer impostor perfume
when it's all for pretend
when
it takes a million words to say nothing
when--
is that what it's come down to?
patriotic christmas lights strung across bushes
and false snowmen constructed from alien substances
standing on a bed of grass?
when it's all for pretend
when it's all just
licking
at
hipness
i ask...
is that it?
a swirl of gibberish wrapped up in nonsense?
i hope for meaning
and keep finding
that
i'm fucked.