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the first time i fell in love

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the first time i fell in love
i was four
and i don't remember his name
except he was six
and he was cute
and he was
the boy i was going to marry
(my grandma brings him up
from time to time)
in arkansas
one hot summer night
he and i sat on a scratchy recliner
and i don't remember if we talked
or if we watched tv
or if
or anything
but all i remember is that
i was four
and he was six
and i was in love
and i was going to marry him
and the next day
we went to church
and posed for a picture
(he was squinting against the sun)
and i was wearing a pretty dress
and i don't remember what he was wearing
but he was the boy...
did i sit next to him that day?
did i hold his hand?
he said yes when i proposed
but did he deep down not like me?
two days later
he was out of my life forever
i was at some other relative's house
and there was another boy there
and yes,
i might have kissed him on the cheek
but i remembered the boy
the boy i was gonna marry
the boy i loved
for the first time
when i was four
and he was six
and it was summer...

i wonder whatever happened to him

(my grandma brings him up
from time to time)