strong and catching poem. I like the lines 'lies, that's what it was all about/ that's not true...' very much. It takes you down very deep to some hellish situation. But than there is this turning point where you tell the truth, no matter how much pain it costs. Ah, wish I was as strong as you. But everybody changes and still stays the same, isn't that what your poem is saying too? So there's hope.
I'm probably reading your beautiful poem totally wrong but still, I like it.