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my heart

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my heart
I tried to salvage today
tried to preserve it in a careful way
tried to wrap it in soft white gauze
tried to coax it into a greater cause
I tried to save it today

but it felt like a tomatoe steeped in vinager
a brown sting surrounding a sweet center
a red throbbing reminder of what self inflicted pain is.
and how I felt that it seemed that my heart
was an appetizer to most men
briefly enjoyed and then forgotten.

my heart
wanted to cry today
wanted to feel blue and destructive
wanted to run away and hide
wanted a friend by her side

but instead I chased my heart to the bar
and tried to drown it in beer, wine, cheap friends
silencing the inner weeping inside
with a loud reggae beat
and a silky grey smoke screen