fly out of the cuckoo's nest
take your life? where would you take it?
pills, police, pissing, pretense? nonsense.
sounds like your mind is asking for a rest from all that you've put it thru... use your mind but never let it use you.
it's an idiots game, and you're no idiot. you have the key to your own cage, if you want out, open the fucking door.