I'm not sure how to reply to your post. What I want to say is that you strike me as being an extraordinarily sincere person.
Yesterday I posted "pro-war" comments on this board. Today I am unsure. This is what fear does to people. I'm having extreme difficulty processing what is going on in the world.
People who think, and are honest, often change their mind; the dangerous are those that make a decision and stick with it until the stars fall from the sky.