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THE SWEAT DRIPS DOWN MY FOREHEAD IN STREAMS. AUGUST HEAT
BREEDS INSANITY FOR THOSE WHO ARE TEETERING ON THE EDGE OF
THE ABYSS. I TAKE A CAMEL LIGHT OUT OF MY SHIRT POCKET AND PUT
IT TO MY LIPS. A HALF EMPTY BOTTLE OF CUERVO GOLD TEQUILA SITS
ON THE TABLE IN FRONT OF ME, THE SMITHS ARE PULSING OUT OF THE
STEREO, SINGING 'THE MOST IMPASSIONATE SONGS TO A LONELY
SOUL ARE SO EASILY OUTGROWN.' I FEEL MYSELF SLOWLY BUT
SURELY SLIPPING INTO SOMETHING I MAY NEVER FIND A WAY OUT OF.
'BUT DONT FORGET THE SONGS THAT MADE YOU CRY, OR THE SONGS
THAT SAVED YOUR LIFE.' IM NOT BLINKING I JUST STARE INTO THE
VACANT SPACE THAT IS MY EXISTENCE, MY SMILE IS MALEVOLENT BUT
FORCED NONE THE LESS. 'AS YOU LAY IN AWE ON YOUR BEDROOM
FLOOR AND SAY DULL WORLD SMOTHER ME MOTHER.. ' I LAY BACK
STARING BLANKLY INTO MALCOLM MCDOWELLS PAINTED EYES
PEERING BACK AT ME FROM MY TV SCREEN.
A BIT OF THE OLD ULTRA VIOLENCE. I FEEL IT STARTING AGAIN, MY
DROOGS, MY COMPANIONS, THE ONLY ONES WHO HAVE STAYED WITH
ME THROUGH THE DIFFICULT TIMES. 'WE APPRECIATE YOUR
PATRONAGE MS. LASSITER, PARTY OF ONE?' OOOH NOOO MY GOOD
MAN, 'WE REQUEST A TABLE FOR FOUR!' WHY DOES HE LOOK AT ME SO
STRANGELY? HOW RUDE! TRINITY DIDN'T WANT ME TO GET MY
EYEBROW PIERCED, SHE SAID I SHOULD GET MY NIPPLE PIERCED
FIRST, AS IT IS LESS CONSPICUOUS, SHE IS THE SUPER EGO TO MY ID.
SIERRA AND ZOE STILL CONTINUE TO PUT THEIR TWO CENTS IN--AH NO
COMMENTS FROM THE PEANUT GALLERY LADIES! I MAKE MY WAY TO
THE MIRROR IN THE HALLWAY AND CHECK MY APPEARANCE-EYES
GLOSSY BLACK MARBLES. TOO MUCH SPEED. I LICK MY TEETH WITH MY
TONGUE...YES, THE BETTER YOU LOOK THE MORE YOU SEE. I HEAR MY
WIFE'S CAR PULL IN THE DRIVEWAY. WE ARE WAITING FOR YOU MY
DARLING. SO MUCH ACTIVITY BEHIND THESE EYES, IF YOU ONLY KNEW
MY DEAR WIFE...JUST HOW MANY WERE SLEEPING NEXT TO YOU AT
NIGHT...BUT THEY CAN HISE, AND SO CAN I.
SHE WALKS IN THE DOOR AND STANDS THERE JUST FUCKING STARING
AT ME WITH THOSE INNOCENT EYES. "WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU" SHE
SAYS
I JUST LOOK AT HER AND SHAKE MY HEAD SLOWLY NOT SAYING A
WORD.
IM WONDERING IF SHE LOOKS AS SEXY ON THE INSIDE AS SHE DOES
OUTWARDLY.MY GOD WOMAN ARE YOU THAT DENSE! I TAKE ANOTHER
SHOT OF TEQUILA AND SIGH. MY HAIR IS PLASTERED TO MY HEAD
FROM SWEATING THE LIQUOR IS DOING NOTHING TO BUFFER THE
EIGHT LINES IVE DONE. MY WIFE SMILES SWEETLY AND GOES INTO THE
KITCHEN, "WELL IM GOING TO TURN IN EARLY " SHE SAYS AND GOES
INTO THE BEDROOM. I CAN HEAR THE ALL TOO FAMILIAR 'I LOVE YOU'S'
COME FROM THE DOORWAY BEFORE IT CLOSES BEHIND HER. TRINITY
TELLS ME MY WIFE IS LYING THROUGH HER FUCKING TEETH AND SHE IS
PROBABLY FUCKING SOMEONE ELSE BEHIND MY BACK. ZOE AND
SIERRA LAUGH HYSTERICALLY AND CALL ME A HUMONGOUS ASS FOR
LETTING HER GET AWAY WITH IT. BUT SHE DOES LOVE ME I SAY ALOUD,
SHE IS THE NICEST PERSON I HAVE EVER MET. SHE WOULDN'T LIE TO
ME. I CAN HEAR MY WIFE ASKING ME WHO I AM TALKING TO FROM THE
OTHER ROOM. I LIGHT ANOTHER CIGARETTE , AND HOLD MY HEAD IN
MY HANDS TIGHTLY. TRYING TO SQEEZE THEM OUT, TRYING NOT TO
LISTEN. TRINITY EXHALES SLOWLY AND COO'S 'WELL DARLING YOU
THOUGHT YOUR EX WAS NICE TOO.....DIDN'T YOU"---I CAN SEE HER
STANDING BEFORE ME, MY EX WIFES IMAGE FLOATING THERE --HER
ARMS AROUND HER NEW CONQUEST LAUGHING---SUCKER!!! SUCKER!!! I
GOT YOU!! HAHAHAAAHAAAHAA!!LAUGHING AND LAUGHING AND
POINTING AT ME NONONONONOFUCKYOUIHATEYOUFUCKINGBITCH!!

I CAN HEAR THE AFGHAN WIGS PLAYING "CONJURE ME" IN THE
BACKGROUND NOW.. 'IM GONNA TURN ON YOU BEFORE YOU TURN ON
ME...'
IM IN THE KITCHEN RIFLING THROUGH THE DRAWER FOR MY
CONSOLATION PRIZE. 'I SMELL YOUR BLOOD MY LOVE BUT I CANT
TASTE IT YET, I HAVE YOUR MIND MY LOVE BUT I KEEP WASTING IT.'
EDEN LASSITER --BORN AGAINST. 'OH MY LOVE WE CAN STILL BE
FRIENDS'... I OPEN THE BEDROOM DOOR AND SEE MY WIFE SLEEPIING
PEACEFULLY. I WALK OVER TO THE EDGE OF THE BED AND TOWER
OVER HER SMILING AT HER LOVINGLY. A NEIGHBORS CAR PULLS UP IN
THEIR DRIVEWAY SHINING THE HEADLIGHTS THROUGH OUR WINDOW
BRIEFLY--HOW PRETTY IT REFLECTED OFF OF THE THICK BLADE I HOLD
IN MY HAND. '...AND OH MY LOVE WITH ME YOU MUST CONTEND...'
I SEE HER SLEEPING, SOUNDLY AND PEACEFULLY. IM KIND OF
DREAMING MYSELF, FALLING INTO MY OWN SELF CREATED ABYSS. I
CANT TELL HER, I CANT, I KNOW THAT NOW. I FEEL AS THOUGH I AM
SINKING THROUGH A PLUSH CARPETING EMERSING INTO A VELVET
REALM OF SELF REALIZATION. SHE TWITCHES A LITTLE IN HER SLEEP
AND LETS OUT A SOFT SIGH. ALL IS CALM, ALL IS BRIGHT--I CAN SEE
EVERYTHING.
TRINITY , ZOE , AND SIERRA STAND BESIDE ME NOW. I LOOK AT TRINITY
WHO SILENTLY NODS HER HEAD IN APPROVAL. I LIGHT A CIGARETTE,
THE SMOKE ESCAPES FROM MY LIPS WAFTING INTO A CLOUD THAT
LINGERS OVER MY WIFE'S HEAD. SOMEWHERE IN THE STEREO OF MY
MIND I CAN HEAR LOU REED SINGING.. 'OH ITS SUCH A PERFECT DAY, IM
GLAD I SPENT IT WITH YOU...JUST A PERFECT DAY..YOU MADE ME
FORGET MYSELF.........I THOUGHT I WAS SOMEONE
ELSE.....................SOMEONE GOOD' .IM STILL SWEATING, TRINITY TAKES
HER HAND AND WIPES IT FROM MY BROW. WE ARE ALL WATCHING HER
SLEEP. THE KNIFE IS GROWING HEAVY IN MY HAND, MY HAND IS
SHAKING. TRINITY IS SLAPPING ME ON THE BACK OF THE HEAD, " GO
ON, FUCKING DO IT MAN.--------SHUT UP YOU'LL WAKE HER UP!!------WELL
GET ON WITH IT, IM HUNGRY-----I CANT---YOU CAN---YES----NO---SHE
WILL MAKE YOU STOP HANGING OUT WITH US--SHE WILL SAY WE'RE A
BAD INFLUENCE ON YOU---NO , NO I WONT LET HER--SHE WILL TAKE
YOU TO A FUCKING SHRINK SO YOU CAN SPILL YOUR GUTS TO A
PERFECT STRANGER WHO WILL DO NOTHING BUT MIND FUCK YOU
DOGGYSTYLE, WHEN WE ARE THE ONLY ONES WHO LOVE YOU--WHO
HAS PROTECTED YOU EDEN-WHO, WHO!!NO!! I WONT LET HER TAKE
YOU AWAY FROM ME!!!MY WIFE WAKES UP STARTLED.."HONEY, WHATS
GOING ON, WHO ARE YOU SCREAMING AT?!" THE ONLY THING I CAN
SAY IS ' IM SORRY' BEFORE TRINITY GRABS THE KNIFE OUT OF MY HAND
AND SAVES ME BECAUSE, I CANT SAVE MYSELF, BUT WE WILL BE
TOGETHER FOREVER NOW AND NO ONE WILL COME BETWEEN THE
FOUR OF US AGAIN.WE WALK OUT OF THE ROOM SINGING, ITS A SONG
BY THE PIXIES, 'WHERE IS MY MIND, WHERE IS MY MIND--
WHEEEERRREE IS MY MIND..WAAAYYY OUT IN THE WATER SEE IT
SWIMMING?' IS THIS REALLY HAPPENING, THIS HAS GOT TO BE A MOVIE.
MY LIFE IS JUST ONE BIG MOVIE, AND EVERYONE IS WATCHING ME, AND
MY FRIENDS. WHEN THE CREDITS FINALLY ROLL, I WILL BE A STAR