for tonight...i am not lost anymore

the air around me
is sucking out all the impurities from my soul
making me see things clearly
finally makine me whole
but being whole is the same as feeling empty
having all of the pieces feels the same as having none
my mind is a vast wasteland
barren
a place im unable to control
i can see for miles
but i dont understand a thing
with no pieces there is nothing to see
nothing to understand
with all of the pieces
the puzzle is to big
to grand
my eyes cant take in the whole of it
the only difference is a feeling in my blood
it moves through me
freely
i can feel every drop as it courses through my veins
it is speaking to me
but i cant understand what it says
it brings a sense of overwhelming calmness
and serenity
i dont now what to do with the oneness that i have found
the completion
im so used to being lacking
to coming up short
to having something else in my life that doesnt make sense
that when it finally all does
i dont know what to do with myself
i have no questions of how, why, when, or where
only of building up the courage to do what needs to be done
i dont know everything that is going to happen in my life
but thats okay
everythings gonna be alright
i am perfectly at peace
not wondering anything
at this moment in time
i am completely honest with myself
and i can see who i am
it will probably be gone by tomorrow
but for tonight
although i might be alone
i am not lost anymore