But there's some people
that one can know for years, and they can all of a sudden throw you a curveball, and then one realizes one has no idea who this person really is, but at the same time, it may also feel like there were signs all along, but then again that might be the result of hindsight bias (EX. When you have car trouble, and you look back and think that you did have a feeling that were you were going to have car trouble before you left the house, but then again you might think this almost every other time you leave the house too, but you also might think every time you leave the house that nothing bad is going to happen, but when something bad does happen, one's mind, according to the theory, highlights, so to speak, the times then one's preconceptions about a situation came true. Of course, this has only been proven to be the case in some situations, it doesn't explain every case, and good god, how the fuck did I end up here in this conversation and what was talking about before (maybe this site should have a built in breathalyzer))
Oh yeah, personas and stuff. I'll admit that I say somethings on this site that I normally don't talk about with most people. A lot of it is because I interact with people I've never met differently than people I know in person. But on top of that, my writing skills are at least five times more advanced that my speaking skills, and within the context of this site writing is the only way through which I can express myself, so I can honestly say that the stuff I write on here is only a partial and slightly distorted representation of who I am in day to day life. Then again, who I am in day to day life sometimes feels like a distortion of who I am when I'm by myself, and then sometimes that feels like a distortion of something even deeper that I will only partially understand, but yet, these are all part of a cohesive (I hope) whole, and each part serves a purpose in various settings (I hope).
I don't know, just as long as my true self doesn't end up leading me into meaningless routine existence, every'll be alright.