I've been needing to write this for a while. I've been needing to figure out for myself what exactly my feelings for this girl are (I'm still not sure).
And there's a subtler confession in there, something I have been keeping secret for years (and I hate keeping secrets) and have just recently been telling people; my main reason for keeping it secret is because of the stereotypes, I don't want to be associated with those stereotypes, because it's different for me...
see, I still can't be explicit about it, unless I'm drunk and there's only like 3 people around
but I don't like secrets; I want people to know. But I don't want them to make assumptions