True true ..
I wish I could have a hand that could paint .. maybe I could fuck like Picasso lately I fuck like Tolstoy.. nevermind that.
It is a lonely constant night to choose to be a writer.
It's different for artists than writers, both are capable of being pretentious though.
I have a friend who's an artist and most times I am the "muscle, " because he's quite weak , and I dont take well to other "artists ," so I find that I can only take so much bullying. They most times never want to test me further but there's always the daring artist in the herd looking to claim a place amoung his own pact.
I'm not always so violent and confronting but I dont like bullying and I become " illogical , " at those times just from being young and all those times we all know about.
But It 's quite a task to be a writer ... I may go through my whole life ignoring the literary "rules ," and stay messy and wordy , etc , whatever have you, at this point it doesnt matter , I dont know how far away from my eccentricities i can get.
But I'll always be true to myself and my few artistic friends.
Writing is a perfect medium because it is an artform of the highest degree but It also is kept and nurtured with our reason and will which makes it all too human.
Hey , I'm going to go outside and have a cigarette in your name .