a past relationship in my teens
was sour like this
while apart from my serious boyfriend, I dated my bestfriend. I loved him because he was so hot and sexy, and we had an open relationship (although I didnt date other people)because I was so fucked up in the head from issues with my father that I thought I wasnt worth being in a relationship where the guy was just dedicated to me.
I thought he was so different from my father, because he treated me great at first. But then he started fucking with my head so much and in many ways abusing- I realized he was just like my father, and I was letting myself be abused my him verbally and emotionally because I felt that was all I was good for. Without realizing, we seek those who harm us in order to solidify ourselves. It couldn't be further from the truth
I have moved on from those sad times