For Sarah

by Saladane

Posted to Action Poetry on 2001-09-07 17:09:00

For Sarah

Would you allow me for just one verse
To set the scene and may be explain
I know that this is not the place
But the time is coming too soon.

I need to know the words in my head
I need to see them and know them read
By the audience or just the one
My heart desires now here’s the sum,

Do I compromise what I know I have
A friends so close……………….oh i’m sick of this rhyme,
Now I enter prose…….continue

My search for love has entered its own need, how many hours have I lived for the written word to be my friend, to open doors, create me new beginnings but as I sit and stand and walk through this day I see what dreams really are, a comfort of sleep, a passage of time, I enter this world as if for the first time. I know the sights the smells and streets but know I’m feeling warmth and cold up on my hand, dry and damp winds kiss my touch like I can’t describe so should I try…..that is not the true purpose of my scribe…the true purpose, do I know? Yes but I find it hard to say. I vent my pressured heart on this page knowing she will never see but yet it is there if she may find and I know she has been but will never return. So it seems I begin……
….my friend I miss you though we seem not to separate for we are never joined but what is it in the moments that I see you my whole structure of life is dismantled with one look or smile or word like ‘Hi’. I build my self up, strengthen my resolve now how I live my life, not quite right but I know the path I walk admit it’s faults but I step firmly, until that look, that smile that, that ‘Hi’ It breaks me in two. I live more apart than in two (me and you) so I need to speak out If I’m ever to be you and you to be me. I’ll live better alone without my weekend pain than each day never knowing, just knowing I’m sane….
….so I return to rhyme for one last flirtation with romance (it may never come so I live it out upon this page)…
Sarah in dreams I live through the day
Knowing that when I sleep your comforts will stay
If I speak what I believe will you answer me fair
Knowing each weighed out word was chosen with care….
..without breaking my heart I can’t go on………….